Monday, October 01, 2007

It's Not My Job

I can’t control the decisions that affect my life but I can control my reactions. I can’t make others think of me the way I think they should but I can control the way I present myself to them.

I read this today and I think it's so true. There are so many things that I find happening that I don't always agree with.

Some things are worthy of being "fought" to have changed; I guess I can control some decisions if I'm in such a position to do so. Some just aren't worth fighting. What's the saying: We have to pick our battles?! I think that's true. Some things we just have to accept and try to make the best of it. Not always easy but necessary for sanity-mine anyway.

I also find myself with a selfish attitude, thinking that people don't "get me" sometimes. I find myself wanting to "prove" things to people. I need to get over that. We are what we are. Like me or not. I need to just do what I think needs to be done and let happen what will happen and let people think what they want to think. And pray a lot-which I find myself doing more & more of these days!

I have always said that I would rather have a handful of true friends that I can go to with my deepest darkest secrets and let my guard down and not just when things are going great in life, and I have those friends. Some have been what I call "casual" friends for a while and over the last months have become very close. Others have been what I call my "go to" girls for years. I am very thankful for these friends.

“If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But, pity the man who falls and has no one to pick him up.”
Ecclesiastes 4:10

I have those friends in my life that I know would help me up if I were ever down and I hope they know I will always be there for them too.

This post is more ramble than not, but it makes sense to me! It is not meant to be mean or taken the wrong way. It just seems like everytime I turn around this weekend, this has been the topic that comes to my mind.(How thankful I am for close friends.) Even my season premiere of Desperate Housewives last night ended with the point that all the ladies have secrets on the show and they all agreed that they would no longer have secrets between them. (I can't explain it very well, so I hope you saw it.)


Kimberly said...

Great blog!I totally agree-quality vs. quantity any day!
I love how you mentioned that you have to release control and just pray and let it be...I have to remember to do that more often!
You are a great friend of mine and I hope to have you for many years to come!
BTW-U are't saying you have any desperate housewives type secret like being pregnant are you? ha!

April S. said...

Kimberly-haha! Before my mom gets all excited, no I am not pregnant. You are too funny. Glad you are a great friend!

MOM said...

Now why would you think that I would get excited!!!!! Shame on you. I just happened to click over on your blog and read your writing. You are just getting too deep with your thoughts. I think pregnancy was good for you--it gave you lots of maturity. I am so proud of you and happy to know that you have lots of "true" friends. You are very wealthy! By the way, I called and shared your blog with Dianne Yarbrough. She was impressed too. Keep up the good work.